Man big time props to Carla and John. They helped me move out of my house today! Ohh my gosh they cranked like no other! We, I mean they, got it all done, everything moved out and cleaned up and now to start our new adventure! While I was driving home to Carla and John's though I lost it. I can't believe that Brian's not here. I soo didn't appreciate, like I should of, the time that we were able to spend together. I didn't realize what it would be like to have him gone. Let me tell you.. it hurts! Every second of everyday it feels like your heart is slowing being torn out of you body, along with you brain and the rational thinking that it is used for. To walk into a room and see someone else being able to kiss and hold their spouse and to be able to talk to them when and where you want to, no matter what. I don't like feeling so alone, even though I know he is going to be able to call, it doesn't talk away the time inbetween calls. The worrying and crying and the void that used to not be there. I just miss him.. haha as if you couldn't tell... But other than that things are good here in the Bayley Mansion. Lexi, I think is finally beginning to adjust and be able to sleep in her own bed through the whole night again. WAHOO! (Kinda) It's nice having someone next to me at night, but I don't want her to get in the habbit of sleeping with me... you know? Well I'll update you more later.
Monday, September 29, 2008
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That would be really hard! you are doing great though. think of how much you will both grow and become stronger individuals. and together a stronger couple. we are here for you and love you.
Rena-- hard times right now, but it will all be for the better in the end. Just keep busy! Which I am sure you do with Lexi. Maybe you should see if the local library has story times that you could take Lexi too and maybe meet some other moms or moms from church too that you could start a playgroup with. Gets you out and Lexi gets to make friends and play too! I am sure Carla will help with the hobbies and things as well.
Get some fun stationary to write your letters on to Brian too!
E-mail his address to us tbinct@hotmail.com
Take Care!!!
I am sorry for this hard time for you. I can't imagine being prego and having my husband gone and not being able to talk very often. Oh by the way I am a friend of Bonnie's, we met y'all a couple of years ago in Connecticut. Probably the hardest part of trial like this is you can't make it go away. You know how on boats if you fight agaisnt the bounce of the boat you feel more sick than if you roll with the motion? I believe trials are like this. Instead of making them something other than they are we have to turn to the Lord and go with it. The ache doesn't necessarily go away but through faith in our Savior our burdens become easier to bare. There is not one perfect way to endure this time. As you turn to the Lord through prayer and scripture study he will show the way that will make this time doable for you and your little one. Your family will be in our prayers. And don't be afraid to reach out through your writing.
hi Rena
We used to go to the same ward in Bloomfield a couple years back. I saw you on my cousin Holly Bailey's blog and wanted to say HI! Your baby is getting so big and another one on the way! That's crappy that you and Brian are apart,Nate travels a lot with work and he is gone for 3 months at a time. I just try to keep myself really really busy. Good luck. our blog is private but if you want to keep in touch send me your e-mail and I can invite you
Emily Lindsey
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